Sunday, April 18, 2010

OMG

I am 15DPO and also suffering a terrible cold. I haven't been taking any cold medicine because of the possibility of being pregnant. So, for some reason, I decided that last night I would take an OPK in the middle of the night. If it was negative, I was going to load up on nighttime cold medicine. If it was positive, well then great. So, around 2am I POAS and voila, a "plus" quickly appeared. The vertical line was noticeably darker than the horizontal one. OMG!! OMG!! I woke up my husband and hugged him and said "guess what?". He knew. And, he could feel my heart beating a million miles per minute.

It's so exciting and amazing, but so scary. I don't think I can suffer another loss. My parents are visiting but I just can't bring myself to tell them. I can't bear to drag them through another roller coaster. I'm nervous it's just a chemical pregnancy and my hopes will be dashed within days. I'm terrified of making it to an u/s and being told, for the third time, that "it's over".

I know that I just need to take it day by day and it's basically out of my control. But, as we all know, that's easier said than done. I left a message at my RE's office, so hopefully I'll get the betas done Monday and Wednesday. Please keep everything crossed for me. My birthday is a week from Monday and I need this gift...it was 4 years ago that we started this quest. Please let this be the year.

15 comments:

  1. Stay positive! Praying the little bean sticks! Oh, and congrats! =)

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  2. Oh wow!! That's amazing!! I'm so happy for you, though I know the first trimester will be no picnic for you.

    Best of luck on the Betas this week!

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  3. That is amazing news!! Praying for great betas!!

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  4. OMG is RIGHT!!!! Alice I'm SO thrilled for you!!!!!!!

    I know it's WAY easier said than done, but try to live in the moment - this happiness is hard earned and well overdue.

    Congratulations, can't wait to hear the updates!

    ((((HUGS)))))

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  5. What amazing news! Congratulations!

    (((HUGS))) Hang in there. I know how tough it can and will be.

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  6. OMG!!! that's great news!! which such a strong positive I think it's not likely to be a chemical, but sure it's understandable that you are cautious. Big hugs, so happy for you!!

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  7. Congratulations!!! What a wonderful surprise! Good luck with your betas! Yay!

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  8. Oh, Alice! I am so excited for you! Congratulations and (((hugs))). I hope both of your betas go well. Keep us posted.

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  9. AHHHHH! I'm with Fran...

    Hugs...and extra prayers!

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  10. Best of luck for betas, crossing everythng for you!!!

    I understand how you feel...wishing you all the best.

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  11. What awesome news!!! Keep us posted!!

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  12. Congrats!! Sending prayers your way. What a great early bday present!

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