I've been totally out of the blogging universe for the last week. I just got caught up on my blog reading and was happy to see some good news from a couple folks. At the same time, misery loves company - I embrace all of you that have had a rough holiday and are hoping that somehow, someway 2010 is going to be better. What's new with me...
1. AF arrived on Christmas (CD32). Yep. On Christmas. Why?!?!? I had unusual amount of hope and weird symptoms this month so am really bummed. Each night, I was waking up to pee every in the middle of the night. I was feeling nauseated often. My boobs kinda hurt although admittedly I think they hurt because I torture them! Anyway, it seemed possible.
2. Despite #1, I had a good holiday. Even with the hell of the 2ww and yet another disappointing result, I had fun over the holidays. I have a tiny family and there were no kids around so I think that helps. I felt so much love from my parents and DH. Excluding all this IF crap, my life is really wonderful.
3. Despite #2, I can't do this much longer. I can't handle more "failed attempts". I want to either (1) move onto donor eggs or adoption or (2) just decide that it may never happen and stop really "trying" to make it happen (of course, still hoping that it will happen). For me, this latter option means that I can exercise and drink to my hearts content. In any case, we still have our appt with a new RE on 1/19 and will try one more round of IVF if she thinks it's a good idea. For this next cycle, we'll just give it another go the old fashioned way.