Friday, December 11, 2009

December Blues

Life is kind of sucking right now. I am just sad. I saw my therapist yesterday and was basically fighting back tears the whole time. She basically told me, in many different ways, "it's ok to be sad". But I still don't want to be sad.

I did finally get a positive OPK result on day 17 (yesterday). I'm am not feeling good about this month given my mood and the fact that I ovulated a bit late. Of course we had sex to try and make things happen, but I was fighting back the tears during that too. So sexy....NOT!!!

The good news is that I know I will feel better at some point. I have to. And I will. I have rebounded before and I will do it again. I've been dealing with this for 3. 5 years and I have had many great times during that time. (Yes, I am giving myself a pep talk!)

But, for now, I feel reclusive and uninspired.


  1. I want to add to your pep talk, but I also want to agree with your therapist. As much as it sucks, it's important to feel your feelings and not suppress them for too long.

    Okay easier said than done, I can think of many times where I'd avoid sadness and peptalk the hell out of myself on a daily basis. So really I have no point... Just know that it's okay to feel however you feel, and cope with those feeling the best you can, and never be afraid to ask for help. I'm here if ever you need to talk.

  2. Just lots of ((((((((((hugs)))))))))).